Watching
MIRROR
Andrei Tarkovsky
USSR, 1975
EMIL CIORAN
In every man sleeps a prophet, and when he wakes there is a little more evil in the world.
ELIAS CANETTI
Crowds and Power
First there is the lying in wait for prey; the prey is marked down long before it is aware of our designs on it. With feelings of pleasure and approval it is contemplated, observed and kept watch over; it is seen as meat whilst it is still alive, and so intensely and irrevocably seen as meat that nothing can deflect the watcher's determination to get hold of it. Already while he is prowling round it he feels that it belongs to him. From the moment he selects it as his prey, he thinks of it as incorporated into himself.
ALICE NOTLEY
"Four Sonnets"
1.
I dreamed of a clipper ship
Gold on blue THE CHASEY ALICE
Until he’d seen which Captain You said
He’d seen nothing, I woke bold
Chased you to get caught in the hold
Back to sleep 2 nightmares
Solid ones down not to be told
Woke not wanting to be in life
Wasn’t, outside warmed
To my blood clean cold quickened
On the way to town for food and
Back for you, though I was still
A little sulky & grim
So you fucked me back in
2.
Pink & white, chiffon & chenille, & cherubs
They frame oval mirror cracked across
No reflection of me it’s rented newly
My books on & under a vanity
Bamboo’s here too, Southamptonese, chair
A library’s dark desk, austere
I rearrange change them which change me
I’ll often forget to see
Pink & white to be lost after 90 days
Town’s as foreign-looking & mine
No town fits—not my image of one, but sense
That a town might make sense.
Clean cold-weather town, historical interest
Winter emptied, slickly plain downtown
3.
Hour less close to feeling bad & restless
Spent bath food & drink while you’ve been sleeping
Now reading I hear you walking past my door shut
& back to bed, no words none needed, how can
I think of what’s not done when there’s an easy doing
Always now? Between us. As we’re doing each
If we reach there are words too, & walks & books to-
Gether, tether we pull tighter, after
It turned surprising into the prize for staying
At it, see there are some sometimes, prizes, that aren’t
Lost when found out, & it isn’t even like winning
Which is what gets to be being over fast, it’s like
Being, & spreading, & air we’re breathing
4.
How long you can do nothing depends on what
You’re doing; breathing from the bottom examining
Shocking pink knee socks recalling legs
Numb blue slacked from coldly walking into
Midst of the day; glad going out’s still not next
Pink wheat nap rustles tipped tired shoes
Swallow … air hum ear ocean
This light chair’s held together by a safety pin
& bamboo shoots, some work. I’ll just put on
A dunce caprice if I close my eyes ride
Air waves “Wonder what the dead people are doing
Tonight” me too
Now doused with hands splashing up nothing
Dunk in blow out float in sit down in it
BEN LERNER
The Lichtenberg Figures
In my day, we knew how to drown plausibly,
to renounce the body’s seven claims to buoyancy. In my day,
our fragrances had agency, our exhausted clocks complained
so beautifully
that cause began to shed its calories
like sparks. With great ostentation, I began to bald. With
great ostentation,
I built a small door in my door for dogs. In my day,
we were reasonable men. Even you women and children
were reasonable men. And there was the promise of pleasure
in every question
we postponed. Like a blouse, the most elegant crimes were
left undone.
Now I am the only one who knows
the story of the baleful forms
our valences assumed in winter light. My people, are you not
horrified of how these verbs decline—
their great ostentation, their doors of different sizes?
•
I must drive many miles to deliver this punch line.
I must drive many miles in the modern manner,
which is suicide, beneath this corrigendum of a sky. Tonight
Orlando Duran went crazy. He smeared every doorknob,
lock, and mirror in his apartment with spermicidal jelly.
To expel air from the lungs suddenly
is not to live beautifully in the modern manner. Rather
one must learn to drive, to drive
in the widest sense of the word, a sense that seats four
other senses comfortably. Tonight Orlando Duran
delivered himself in the modern manner,
delivered himself like a punch line. Is this what he meant by
“negative liberty,”
by “sound of one hand clapping is a heartbeat”?
•
True, a great work takes up the question of its origins
and lets it drop. But this is no great work. This is a sketch
sold on the strength of its signature, a sketch
executed without trial. Inappropriately formal,
this late work reflects an inability to swallow. Once
my name suggested female bathers
rendered in bright impasto.
Now it is dismissed as “unpronounceable.”
Polemical, depressed, these contagious black planes
were hung to disperse museum crowds. Alas,
a generation of pilgrim smokers
has arrived and set off the sprinklers.
True, abandoning the figure won’t change the world.
But then again, neither will changing the world.
•
The left hand is a scandal. And my woman is left handed.
She neglects our middle children.
She deploys her powers on behalf of other nations.
Sleep is a synagogue. And my woman sleeps
The dreamless sleep of the pornographer. Mother always said,
“Worship me, and all this will be yours.” Father always said,
“Suffer common hardship and die in bed.”
Yet I reside with my woman on their acre of irony.
Yet I will die on the cross and I worship my death.
The internet is the future. And my woman rejects the
internet.
She rises up when I lie down.
She inflames divisions among the Jews.
Citation is exaltation. And my woman cites
her own unpublished dissertation.
•
I did it for the children. I did it for the money.
I did it for the depression of spirit and the cessation of hope.
I did it because I could, because it was there.
I’d do it again. Oops, I did it again.
What have I done? What have I done
to deserve this? What have I done with my keys,
my youth? What am I going to do
while you’re at tennis camp? What are we going to do
with the body? I don’t do smack. I don’t do
toilets. I don’t do well at school. I could do
with a bath. Unto others, I do
injurious, praiseworthy, parroted acts.
Let’s just do Chinese. Just do as I say. Just do me.
That does it. Easy does it. That’ll do.
•
Blood on the time that we have on our hands.
Blood on our sheets, our sheets of music.
Blood on the canvases
of boxing rings, the canvases of Henri Matisse.
The man-child faints at the sight of blood
and so must close his eyes
as he dispatches his terrier
with a pocketknife. Tonight,
blood condensed from atmospheric vapor
falls to the earth. It bleeds three inches.
Concerts are canceled, ball games delayed.
In galoshes and slickers, the children play.
An arc of seven spectral colors appears opposite the sun
as a result of light refracted through the drops of blood.
•
In those days partial nudity was permitted
provided the breasts in question hung from indigenes.
The clouds had an ease of diction,
and death had a way with women
and at night our documents opened
to emit their redolent confessions.
In those days whole onions, whole peoples were immersed
in the pellucid, semisolid fat of hogs.
The children ran lines of powdered gold,
huffed glue comprised of studs,
smoked burial myrrh and then shot up
their schools.
In those days police hauled in all bugs, then birds, then stars
and the sky fled underground.
OCTAVIO PAZ
"In The Middle Of This Phrase…"
I am not at the crest of the world.
The moment
is not the stylite’s pillar,
time
doesn’t rise from my feet,
doesn’t burst
in my skull in a silent black explosion,
illumination the same as blindness.
I am on the sixth floor,
I am
in a cage hung from time.
Sixth floor:
clatter and surf,
battle of metals,
glasshatter,
engines with a rage now human.
The night
is a disjointed murmur,
a body
self-embraced, tearing itself apart.
Blind,
fumbling to bind its pieces,
it gathers
its broken names and scatters them.
With lopped fingers
the city touches itself in dreams.
I am not at the crossroads:
to choose
is to go wrong.
I am
in the middle of this phrase.
Where will it take me?
Rumbling tumble,
data and date,
my birthfall:
calendar dismembered
in the hollows of my memory.
I am the sack of my shadows.
Descent
to the slack breasts of my mother.
Wrinkled hills,
swabbed lava,
sobbing fields,
saltpeter meals.
Two workmen open the pit.
Crumbled
mouth of cement and brick.
The wracked box appears:
through the loose planks
the pearl-grey hat,
the pair of shoes,
the black suit of a lawyer.
Bones, buttons, rags:
sudden heap of dust
at the feet of the light.
Cold, unused light,
almost sleeping,
dawn light,
just down from the hills,
shepherdess of the dead.
That which was my father
fits in that canvas sack
a workman hands me
as my mother crosses herself.
Before it ends
the vision scatters:
I am in the middle,
hung in a cage,
hung in an image.
The beginning drifts off,
the end vanishes.
There is neither start nor finish:
I am in the pause,
I neither end nor begin,
what I say
has neither hands nor feet.
I turn around in myself
and always find
the same names,
the same faces,
and never find myself.
My history is not mine:
a syllable from that broken phrase
the city in its circular fever
repeats and repeats.
City, my city,
insulted stela,
dishonored stone,
name spat out.
Your story is History:
fate
masked as freedom,
errant,
orbitless star,
a game
we all play without knowing the rules,
a game that no one wins,
a game without rules,
the whim of a speculative god,
a man
turned into a stuttering god.
Our oracles
are aphasic speech.
Our prophets
seers with glasses.
History:
coming and going
without beginning
without end.
No one has gone there,
no one
has drunk from the fountain,
no one
has opened the stone eyelids of time,
no one
has heard the first word,
no one will hear the last,
the mouth that speaks it talks to itself,
no one
has gone down in the pit of the universes,
no one
has returned from the dungheap of the suns.
History:
dump and rainbow.
Scale
to the high terraces:
seven notes
dissolved in clarity.
Shadowless words.
We didn’t hear them, we denied them.
We said they don’t exist:
we were content with noise.
Sixth floor:
I am in the middle of this phrase:
where
will it take me?
Mangled language.
Poet: gardener of epitaphs.
—Translated from the Spanish by Eliot Weinberger
Playing
Dora Pejačević
PIANO CONCERTO, OP. 33
SYMPHONY IN F-SHARP MINOR, OP. 41
Peter Donohoe
Sakari Oramo
BBC Symphony Orchestra
ELIAS CANETTI
Crowds and Power
The deception is complete. It is the deception of all leaders. They pretend that they will be the first to die, but, in reality, they send their people to death, so that they themselves may stay alive longer. The trick is always the same. The leader wants to survive, for with each survival he grows stronger. If he has enemies, so much the better; he survives them. If not, he has his own people. In any event he uses both, whether successively or together. Enemies he can use openly; that is why he has enemies. His own people must be used secretly.
ELIAS CANETTI
Crowds and Power
A human being who falls down reminds us of an animal we might have hunted and brought down ourselves. Every sudden fall which arouses laughter does so because it suggests helplessness and reminds us that the fallen can, if we want, be treated as prey. If we went further and actually ate it, we would not laugh. We laugh instead of eating it. Laughter is our physical reaction to the escape of potential food.
ELIAS CANETTI
Crowds and Power
The crowd is the same everywhere, in all periods and cultures; it remains essentially the same among men of the most diverse origin, education and language. Once in being, it spreads with the utmost violence. Few can resist its contagion; it always wants to go on growing and there are no inherent limits to its growth. It can arise wherever people are together, and its spontaneity and suddenness are uncanny.
ELIAS CANETTI
Crowds and Power
It is only in a crowd that man can become free of this fear of being touched. That is the only situation in which the fear changes into its opposite. The crowd he needs is the dense crowd, in which body is pressed to body; a crowd, too, whose psychical constitution is also dense, or compact, so that he no longer notices who it is that presses against him.
As soon as a man has surrendered himself to the crowd, he ceases to fear its touch. Ideally, all are equal there; no distinctions count. Not even that of sex. The man pressed against him is the same as himself He feels him as he feels himself. Suddenly it is as though everything were happening in one and the same body.
Playing
Various Artists
VISION & REVISION
The First 80 Years of Topic Records
Tracks by Martin Simpson, Richard Thompson, Lankum, Peggy Seeger, John Smith, Sam Lee, Martin Carthy, Olivia Chaney, Lisa O’Neill, Oysterband, Nancy Kerr, Chris Wood, Josienne Clarke & Ben Walker, Lisa Knapp, Kitty Macfarlane, Sam Kelly & The Lost Boys, Emily Portman & Rob Harbron, Rachael McShane & The Cartographers, Eliza Carthy & Olivia Chaney, and The Oldham Tinkers.
ELIAS CANETTI
The Human Province
There are books, that one has for twenty years without reading them, that one always keeps at hand, that one takes along from city to city, from country to country, carefully packed, even when there is very little room, and perhaps one leafs through them while removing them from a trunk; yet one carefully refrains from reading even a complete sentence.
Then after twenty years, there comes a moment when suddenly, as though under a high compulsion, one cannot help taking in such a book from beginning to end, at one sitting: it is like a revelation. Now one knows why one made such a fuss about it. It had to be with one for a long time; it had to travel; it had to occupy space; it had to be a burden; and now it has reached the goal of its voyage, now it reveals itself, now it illuminates the twenty bygone years it mutely lived with one. It could not say so much if it had not been there mutely the whole time, and what idiot would dare to assert that the same things had always been in it.
OTTESSA MOSHFEGH
"Dancing in the Moonlight"
I met her two days before Christmas at a holiday pop-up market on the Lower East Side. This was 2006, and she was selling refurbished antique furniture, which she’d placed around her taped-off space like someone’s fancy living room. She wore tight red trousers and a black shirt that looked like the top of a ballerina’s leotard. Her hair was frizzy, bleached blonde, and she had a lot of makeup on—too much, I’d say. Her face was pinched, as though she’d just smelled someone farting. It was that look of revulsion that awoke something in me. She made me want to be a better man.
While she was busy with customers, I sat on a chaise longue for sale and pretended to be fascinated. I pushed at the springs with the palms of my hands. I lay down like a patient in analysis, then sat up again. The thing was priced at $2,750. I took out my cell phone and pressed some buttons, pretending that I wasn’t staring at the girl. Finally she noticed me and came over.
ALEKSEY KONSTANOVICH TOLSTOY
"The Wolves"
When the church-village slumbers
And the last songs are sung,
When the grey mist arising,
Is o’er the marshes hung,
’Tis then the woods forsaking,
Their way cross country taking.
Nine howling wolves come hungering for food.
Behind the first,—the grey one,—
Trot seven more of black.
Close on their hoary leader;
As rearguard of the pack
The red wolf limps, all bloody,
His paws with gore still ruddy
As after his companions grim he pants.
When through the village lurking
Nought gives them check or fright,
No watch dog dares to bellow,
The peasant ghastly white.
His breath can scarce be taking.
His limbs withhold from shaking—
While prayers of terror freeze upon his lips!
About the church they circle
And softly slink away
To prowl about the priest’s farm,
Then of a sudden they
Are round the drink shop turning,
Fain some bad word be learning—
From peasants drinking noisily within.
With fully thirteen bullets
Thy weapon must be armed,
And with a wad of goat’s hair;
Then thou wilt fight unharmed.
Fire calmly,—and before all
Will the leader, the grey, fall,
The rest will surely follow one by one.
When the cock wakes the village
From out its morning dream.
Thou wilt behold the corpses—
Nine she-wolves by the stream!
On the right lies the grey one,
To left in frost the lame one—
All bloody,—God pardon us sinners!
Translated from the Russian by Martha Gilbert Dickinson Bianchi
RALPH WALDO EMERSON
"Fate"
That you are fair or wise is vain,
Or strong, or rich, or generous;
You must have also the untaught strain
That sheds beauty on the rose.
There is a melody born of melody,
Which melts the world into a sea.
Toil could never compass it,
Art its height could never hit,
It came never out of wit,
But a music music-born
Well may Jove and Juno scorn.
Thy beauty, if it lack the fire
Which drives me mad with sweet desire,
What boots it? what the soldier’s mail
Unless he conquer and prevail?
What all the goods thy pride which lift,
If thou pine for another’s gift?
Alas! that one is born in blight,
Victim of perpetual slight;—
When thou lookest in his face,
Thy heart saith, Brother! go thy ways.
None shall ask thee what thou doest,
Or care a rush for what thou knowest.
Or listen when thou repliest,
Or remember where thou liest,
Or how thy supper is sodden,—
And another is born
To make the sun forgotten.
Surely he carries a talisman
Under his tongue;
Broad are his shoulders, and strong,
And his eye is scornful,
Threatening, and young.
I hold it of little matter,—
Whether your jewel be of pure water,
A rose diamond or a white,—
But whether it dazzle me with light.
I care not how you are drest,
In the coarsest, or in the best,
Nor whether your name is base or brave,
Nor for the fashion of your behavior,—
But whether you charm me,
Bid my bread feed, and my fire warm me,
And dress up nature in your favor.
One thing is forever good,
That one thing is success,—
Dear to the Eumenides,
And to all the heavenly brood.
Who bides at home, nor looks abroad,
Carries the eagles, and masters the sword.
WILLIAM CARLOS WILLIAMS
"About a little girl"
Knowledge defeats its own end
approaching the state of heaven
when it envisions
through the glass
delicately adjusted in the
sliding tubes
—to prove death inevitable—
the red and blue dots
of anilene stained blood which
shout derisively at our despair
But the child
walks laughing from
room to room of her gentle home
She is eleven and
her parents love her very much
Over her
the trees hold their leaves
dripping with the rain
shining green
This afternoon she will ride in the bus
to the railroad station
There will be a locomotive
and cars and people running around—
bags to carry—The lake
beckons in the distance—
But
she is an angel, already in
heaven, the earth
is a toy balloon under her feet—
with her girlish shoes she
pushes it back—
it falls away into banality—
her wrinkling brown eyes have robbed it
of its meaning—
It is she
The Promenader—
whom men see and do not discover—
Princess Marion
eaten by curious wrongs
ITALO CALVINO
If on a Winter's Night a Traveler
You're the sort of person who, on principle, no longer expects anything of anything. There are plenty, younger than you or less young, who live in the expectation of extraordinary experiences: from books, from people, from journeys, from events, from what tomorrow has in store. But not you. You know that the best you can expect is to avoid the worst.