Currently Watching
[30 Days of The Gays™ Edition]
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WEEKEND
Andrew Haigh
UK, 2012
Friday, June 30, 2023
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ALEXANDER LEON
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Queer people don't grow up as ourselves, we grow up playing a version of ourselves that sacrifices authenticity to minimise humiliation and prejudice. The massive task of our adult lives is to unpick which parts of ourselves are truly us & which parts we've created to protect us.
Thursday, June 29, 2023
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RAMINO ROSAN
"Decisión"
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I have decided:
I will take the stick to always go forward,
and I will cover my head with a green and flowery hat,
keep you locked in your shadow
to all my gloomy thoughts.
Then my eyes will look at me
from the mirror window,
And I'll smile and smile and smile...
until it emanates from my face
the burning light of dawn.
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Lo tengo decidido:
tomaré el bastón de ir siempre adelante,
y cubriré mi cabeza con un sombrero verde y florecido,
que mantenga encerrado en su sombra
a todos mis pensamientos sombríos.
Luego, me mirarán mis ojos
desde la ventana del espejo,
y sonreiré y sonreiré y sonreiré…
hasta que emane de mi rostro
la ardiente luz del alba.
Wednesday, June 28, 2023
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PAUL MONETTE
"Everything Extraneous Has Burned Away"
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everything extraneous has burned away
this is how burning feels in the fall
of the final year not like leaves in a blue
October but as if the skies were a paper lantern
full of trapped moths beating their fired wings
and yet I can lie on this hill just above you
a foot beside where I will lie myself
soon soon and for all the wrack and blubber
feel still how we were warriors when the
merest morning sun in the garden was a
kingdom after Room 1010 war in not all
death it turns out war is what little
thing you hold onto refugees and far from home
oh sweetie will you please forgive me this
that every time I opened a box of anything
Glad Bags One-A-Days KINGSIZE was
the worst I’d think will you still be here
when the bus is empty Rog Rog who will
play boy with me now that I bucket with tears
through it all when I’d cling beside you sobbing
you’d shrug it off with the quietest I’m still
here I have your watch in the top drawer
which I don’t dare wear yet help me please
the boxes grocery home day after day
the junk that keeps men spotless but it doesn’t
matter now how long they last or I
the day has taken you with it and all
there is now is burning dark the only green
is up by the grave and this little thing
of telling the hill I’m here oh I’m here
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Tuesday, June 27, 2023
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Monday, June 26, 2023
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Currently Playing
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OH! YOU PRETTY THINGS
Glam Queens And Street Urchins 1970-1976
Roxy Music, Electric Light Orchestra, Sparks, Pretty Things, The Hollywood Brats, Silverhead, Be Bop Deluxe, Streak, Ian Hunter, Hawkwind, Brutus, England's Glory, Dana Gillespie, Rococo, Mick Ronson, Duncan Browne, The Kinks, Bearded Lady, Simon Turner, Heavy Metal Kids, Blackfoot Sue, The Pink Fairies, Slade, Thin Lizzy, Zior, Lou Reed, John Cale, Despair, The Hammersmith Gorillas, Doctors Of Madness, Iggy & The Stooges, Third World War, Agnes Strange, Bryan Ferry, Curved Air, Jobriath, Phil Manzanera Featuring Brian Eno, Slowload, The Troggs, Rosie, Wayne County, Tim Curry, Sweet, New York Dolls, Tina Harvey, John Howard, Brett Smiley, Leo Sayer, Richmond, Strawbs, A Raincoat, Rupert Hine, Rusty, Duffy, The Browns, The Winkies, Hard Stuff , Flamin' Groovies, Bullfrog, Spiv, Fumble, Crushed Butler, Michael Moorcock & The Deep Fix, Kim Fowley, Hollywood Stars, The Sensational Alex Harvey Band, Mott The Hoople
EDWARD FIELD
"Unwanted"
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The poster with my picture on it
is hanging on the bulletin board in the Post Office.
I stand by it hoping to be recognized
Posing first full face and then in profile
But everybody passes by and I have to admit
The photograph was taken some years ago.
I was unwanted then and I’m unwanted now
Ah guess ah’ll go up echo mountain and crah.
I wish someone would find my fingerprints somewhere
Maybe on a corpse and say, You’re it.
Description: Male, or reasonably so
White, but not lily-white and usually deep-red
Thirty-fivish, and looks it lately
Five-feet-nine and one-hundred-thirty pounds: no physique
Black hair going gray, hairline receding fast
What used to be curly, now fuzzy
Brown eyes starey under the beetling brow
Mole on chin, probably will become a wen
It is perfectly obvious that he was not popular at school
No good at baseball, and wet his bed.
His aliases tell his story: Dumbell, Good-for nothing,
Jewboy, Fieldinsky, Skinny, Fierce Face, Greaseball, Sissy.
Warning: This man is not dangerous, answers to any name
Responds to love, don’t call him or he will come.
Sunday, June 25, 2023
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THE STORY OF MY LIFE
60 Original Pop and Soul Anthems
Buch Bacharach
Featuring Dionne Warwick, Gene Pitney, Gene Vincent, Del Shannon, The Shirelles, The Drifters, Marty Robbins, Perry Como, Johnny Mathis, Etta James, Sophia Loren, Marlene Dietrich, Jack Jones, Mel Tormé, Cathy Carr
MICHAEL AMHERST
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The imperative placed on queer people to account for ourselves is a discriminatory act that demeans our human dignity. It is not a demand made of heterosexuals, they do not need to account for themselves, their desire does not need to be reduced to the language of politics or stance.
Art is the realm in which contradictions can be held and not resolved, but held in a kind of beneficent statis, that is like sexuality, desire like art, a creative act that reveals something of us anew in each act of desiring. Anything less is a compromise, a distortion of ourselves and the rights we should be afforded.
I will not accept that the heteronormative may love in the language of art, but that I may only love in the language of politics.
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Saturday, June 24, 2023
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And while WE are out celebrating human life and love - as well as those pesky slogans like "all lives matter," "liberty and justice for all," and "all men are created equal" (and, of course Matthew 25, that completely rejected bit about "Whatsoever you have done to the least of them you have done to me" - here's our message to every MAGAt and other fake, Jesus-rejecting christian:
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1-866-488-7386
This is the Trevor Project
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Anyone struggling with
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of any kind deserves support and
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They matter.
If you are struggling with
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You matter.
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BENJAMIN ALIRE SÁENZ
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe
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We walked into the forever white sand dunes, and soon we were far away from all the people in the world. Everyone had disappeared from the universe except the young man whose hand I was holding, and everything that had ever been born and everything that had ever died existed where his hand touched mine. Everything the blue of the sky, the rain in the clouds, the white of the sand, the water in the oceans, all the languages of all the nations, and all the broken hearts that had learned to beat in their brokenness.
Friday, June 23, 2023
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Franz Schubert
THE STRING QUARTETS
Melos Quartett
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String Quartet No. 1 in Various Keys, D 18
String Quartet No. 2 in C Major, D 32
String Quartet No. 3 in B-flat Major, D 36
String Quartet Movement In C minor, D 103
String Quartet No. 4 in C Major, D 46
String Quartet No. 5 in B-flat Major, D 68
ABDI NAZEMIAN
Like a Love Story
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They don't look at me or talk to me. I don't get it. I'm the one who just came out to them. I'm the one who is broken up inside. Why am I not the one being comforted? Why is no one telling me it's okay?
We didn't talk. This was the quietest moment I had ever been in. Even my busy brain--it was quiet. So quiet that I felt that I was in a church. And the thought entered my head that my love for Dante was holy, not because I was holy but because what I felt for him was pure.
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I want her to hold me, ask me about him, something. Instead she says, "I can't hear about this. Please. I can't.” In the language my mother speaks, I literally don't exist.
Thursday, June 22, 2023
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NINA LACOUR
"You Know Me Well"
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No son of mine, Lord.
No son of mine!
Beat beat beat
You try to beat it out of me
Belt it out of me
Heartless heart
Beat beating
You think you can bruise me
Out of being
Bruise it out of me
When you belt it beat it
Try to break it-
Try to break the thing you cannot break
Because I carry it so deep inside
No beat of yours no belt of yours
Will ever come close.
You try to beat it out of me
Belt it out of me
Belt me into buckling
Beat me into heartstopping
Stop hurting
Trying so hard
You say you'll kill me to save me
Kill the me inside of me
Beat it belt it but it
Just won't budge.
Not for you.
I know
You can't stay in this room forever
I know
We can't stay in this room forever
You beat me belt me to get to me
But you'll never get to me
Not the me me heartbeat me.
I am saving it.
I am saving it for tonight
I am saving it for you right there
And you over there.
I am saving it for
Every you with a me deep inside.
Now that I've left that room
Out into the world as big
As a billion rooms
I have saved me
Yes, I have saved me
Constructed of words and hurt
And the glass self I've protected
All this time
To get to this one of a billion rooms
This room tonight.
Beat beat beat
I have found my own beat
My own pitter-patter
My own sis-boom-bah!
Beat beat beat
I belt it out
Song sung strong
Stung song
Tongue song
Back from being
Bitten back
Some songs sung
beg to be carried home.
This song sings
To be carried far and wide.
Beat beat beat-
The sound it brings
Is the sound of wings.
Wednesday, June 21, 2023
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BENJAMIN ALIRE SÁENZ
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe
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I wanted to tell them that he had changed my life and that I would never be the same, not ever. And that somehow it felt like it was Dante who saved my life and not the other way around. I wanted to tell them that he was the first human being who had ever made me want to talk about the things that scared me.
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Tuesday, June 20, 2023
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Monday, June 19, 2023
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